EHHHHHHHHHHH >insert the table flip<
The First Presentation
This was a killer
No joke
I felt my heart stop.
So this was new for me, very new. I found it was easy to get the information and get the presentation ready. Though, as I hit the stage of presenting, I found everything I had planned out, crumbled. (Thanks social anxiety) I ended up sounding shaky as ever, and having the worst case of stage fright. I felt my face beat red. Though, I did like talking about it, it was nice, it made me feel slightly more comfortable than normal. It barely helped though.
I wanted to add so much more but I have an issue with being able to keep myself focused with stupid stuff going on at home and personal life. Its no excuse though, I need to learn and grow with the factor of my procrastination when I get upset. Soon I can fix that and maybe get more stuff done. Though I wish I used movie maker, I could have at least had music playing and not felt so singled out. Though I guess in the end it was alright.
I had two favorites in this presentations. The first was Jo, I loved how she made a youtube video and actually really had a connection with it. It made me feel comfortable. The second is Jared’s, it was SO MUCH INFO I learned a lot more than I thought I would. You could tell he took time and really researched.
The State Fair
ugh
I was going to do a girl emerging from a flower, her hand reaching up over her face, the other laying up in the air. The background was a night sky on the top, with a moon in the right corner. It would shine down onto her and catch her in the blueish white of the full moon, while under her, what birthed the flower, was a sunrise, glimmering in the bottom left corner. It shone under the flower, blending those beautiful colors into the white of the petals and onto her. I kept redrawing her to no avail. Nothing felt, I guess complete. Like it wasn’t going to be good enough anyways. I think this a lot. So I turned her around, having her just looking to the night sky, I added the quote “I tear reality, in the hopes to find a new one.” I called it “The birth of a broken world.”
For me, this was more than just a random drawing. I took the night sky as the darkness, the fear within people, the sunrise to show the birth of a new thing, but sometimes you cant see that, you see the distance between both, where you cant find yourself gathering your own features and thoughts, as if you are just running through the motions with no one to ever notice, and soon the sadness arrives. It eats away at us, bit by bit, taking our love, care, everything and shattering it.
I still cant finish her.
So I stepped away from that design.
The Second Sketch
Honestly I am doubting this one already.
So, this one is a girl, a portrait, looking straight ahead, eyes wide, pupils small, with a light shimmer to her eyes. But from the dark background behind her, two hands are there, one around her mouth, the other grabbing her shoulder. The hand over her mouth has liquid coming from it, I don’t think I will make it blood because I don’t if kids would be at the fair. Maybe a few shades of colors, or the blackness that holds the hands. This one is very new, but I feel like this has a greater impact, it wouldn’t need words.
The background. It is a black almost rippling texture, as if it isn’t solid, with light streaks of colors, slowly getting absorbed into the hands that come out. This is what I call pain. Pain can be in many things, it can come from anger, loss, love, hate, anything. But this particular picture shows how the little bits of it can form very real things. This girl, she looks normal, pretty, seeming to not even realize something is even touching her. This was from how pain disguises its self until, makes it seem like its nothing until you boil over. But the liquid, is almost as if she had been hurt, her words, her voice. Many feelings are expressed in words, but what if they were gone? Remember the “pain” reference? It shows how pain can warp words, it can silence even the most talkative of people. The hand on her mouth is covering it, blocking any words out. So when you try hard enough to cry and scream, you will make your throat raw, and sometimes even make it to where it bleeds. (did that from coughing a few times) It shows how much she has pushed to speak, pushed against this invisible hand to be able to express herself. The second is on her shoulder, it shows how it has a grip on her, always, even when that hand isn’t over her mouth, she will still feel the pain lurking at her. She has no clothing on it appears, as if she is naked, to show that no matter what she puts on, this darkness prays on her. It will see all of her, even what she tries to hide.
As you can see, this one was more thought on the emotional side, it was meant to be really looked at and thought on. It was meant for many interpretations, may it be good or bad. This one honestly I hope I can develop into something good, because I feel like this might actually catch someones eye there. Or not.
This Class As A Whole
This place is honestly smaller.
But terrifying.
I like the DC class very much, I liked the way its more of a home than a class. No longer its “do this.” there is always a relation, a soft part that makes this class feel different than others. Maybe its just me.
We created avatars our first day or two, I really just kinda looked through and decided what looked good and kinda stuck with it.
After that, we went onto pintrest.com and made accounts with a minimum of 10 boards that would have a minimum of 3 pins on them. I really liked this part. I knew this would help me a lot with when I get stuck on drawing something. It also had pages upon pages of coloring help and tutorials for photoshop, illustrator, and paint tool sai, the last I use at home regularly. I have been trying my hardest to get used to Photoshop and Illustrator, but it is hard. I get confused easily and just want to be able to get the work done. I am scared something else will happen that will make me unable to finish it in time.
(the avatar I created randomly)
If you have read this far, thanks. cx Bye for now.
Kayla S